Monday, December 31, 2012

Over.

Believe it or not, I am now graduated. I have my new career, and I'm practiding it. I'm out of the white town. What will now become of this space? Hmm?

Time will tell.

Tuesday, June 28, 2011

Last wind

I started this as an outlet. Started it as a way to document my journey. Soon, the said journey will be over. And when it is, I'll be here to conclude.

Today however, I am a year away from closing the case. Justice will be served when I finally get what I deserve. I have worked hard. And hard, has worked me. Its been a case of tit for tat and am ready to get paid right back.

It feels glorious, to reach... and as I go into fourth year, I get one last wind, and just know, that I am ready to win this.

Sunday, August 22, 2010

Agony

In two weeks, i will return back to the white town.

What to do what to do what to do?!

But i cant escape it. So, i close my eyes, and guzzle it down in hope that i get it down my belly fast enough, to not taste the bulk of it.

A quick sweep up the bottom of the watercup a moment later... chasing the awful tase out of my existence. By then, it'll be next ummer and I wouldnt mind coming back (for one last year), so much.

Thursday, September 3, 2009

Breakfast with Pat and Leez

Yesterday, wasnt a typical day.
You know you'd seldom get a day that you know, was "meant to be". You were meant to live it. You'd probably lived the past few days before that, just to come to encounter that one day.
That was yerterday.
I had worked the night before... was to get off work yesterday at 7am.
But as usual, we had worked short. I had 9 patients.
One expired.
Just to get off topic here,
AD, May your soul rest in perfect peace. Your daughters truly loved you. What a family!
Back on track;
Then in the am... an hour before I got off, i got a new admission. Needless to say, I ended up leaving work sometime around 8am, feeling terribly unaccomplished. I felt like I could not provide the kind of care that my standards demands. I left, in a hurry. I could not even care less about filling out an overtime sheet. I just simply wanted out.

Just before we left, Leez a peadiatric nurse that I know but had never worked with, and Pat. G an RN on my unit, asked me to come along to "Mikes'" for breakfast.
Okay, I'll be honest with you, at first I thought it'd be a bad idea to agree.
Its tough going out to eat with people who are used to having non-African dishes.
Our table manners are different.
I prefer eating with my hands.
And goodness, I can make plenty mess with that.

"No... thats okay, am..." searching for the perfect excuse in my tired memory "...tired"
But that wasnt good enough. They convinced me. I agreed in spite of the warnings by the little voice in my mind that tried to remind me of just how broke I was.
But see, you only live once. At least, I could count this as one of my professional encounters.

So, I met them at Mike's... me, Leez and Pat who we often called "Grandma".

And psst... I had the time of my life!


But dont tell anyone.

I ordered breakfast lumberjack pizza. I liked it alot. So did Pat. She had ordered the regular breakfast. So had Leez.

Leez lives with her kids, and is married. But her husband lives four and a half hours away. If you ask me, that is either craziness, craziness or nutzies. I`d never be able to do that (but then again, I said I`d never be able tohave another room mate and here I am, living with yet, another room mate. NEVER say never)
Pat lives with her kids. She is divorced I think. One of her daughters has anorexia. That is one terrible disease.

I have so much to thank God for.
Thank God.

We discussed so much. From American vs Canadian healthcare system, to Poverty, to rapture.
Leez despices talking about the end of the world. It makes her nervous. So to soothe her fears, she believes that there`ll be no rapture. We all die at different times.
Pat`s sister is a journalist and writer who has lived in Afghanistan for years.

I too, shared with them... that my parents are divorced. Both retired. That isnt exactly true. They arent exactly both retired.
And we talked abit about the child ``borrowing`` system in Africa where a child of a less fortunate family would be sent to the city to live as a maid in a more fortunate home.

And we talked....
and talked...

and eventually left at past 10.


August 18-09

Tuesday, April 21, 2009

Over the seas...wayyy...over.

I started dating a guy a few days ago. On the 17th, he asked me and I said yes.

What is slightly odd about this relationship is that I usually dont date younger men. He is 2 years younger. He is also 16 hours car drive away from me.

Now, I've done long distance relationships before, but with men who were able to afford plane tickets. I'd go see my ex 1-3 times a week by flight since it wasnt an issue.

But this man is a student, and so am I.

But he is just soooo sexy!
As I get older, I find myself redefining what sexiness means to me.

For the sake of annonymity, we'll call my new boyfie "Sugar".

Sugar...
a leo. darkskinned guyanese man. student. funny. reserved. describes himself as a "pushover". ever so smily. "nice".

I like him because:
he seems to be really different from me...like the water to my flame. Respetful and quite loving, am getting to realize. He seems non judgemental and seems to be really into me.

We met:
Last summer at a party. I was walking to a party with my friend when he said something to us. He was walking with his friend. I looked back and saw his friend but couldnt see him,...actually, i did. I saw his smile. I remember telling him "I heard someone say something and I see your smile but I cant see the rest of you". It was dark out and he just blended with the dark lol. I love that kind of men. I LOVE dark skinned men.

On our way to the party, we chatted, all of us. At the party, we danced, winned and jumped to the soca music at the fete. It was sooo much fun. I remember we took our spaces, me and my girl went away to dance with other folks. At the end of the night, we didnt want it to end. I got in my car with my girl and he with his friend. Then someone had the idea that we shoudl go out to eat, and we should drive down together soooo! My friend went in their car and he came in my car. I let him drive my car because for the first time, i actually found someone who could drive manual! lol. He drove.

We got to the restaurant at china town and I dont even remember if we ate. BUT we went back to the motel they stayed at. My friend stayed downstairs in his friend's car with the friend. My friend is freaky lol so I expected that they'd have sex.

I had never had a one night stand, but for me, that night was to be it.
But somewhere on our way there, I'd asked how old he was. He'd told me. BIG disappointment. I changed my mind about sexing him immediately. I was sure not going to sex a younger man.

Wheni got upstairs in the room, i asked for a shirt, put it on (because my club outfit was SOOO short) and slept.
That was it.


Then he went back to NewYork and I moved to thiswhitetown and... have been fb stalking him ever since. This man is so sexy!

Why didnt I sex him?
How silly of me!

Anyway, now not only am I going to have his body,... am going to have everything that makes him him, all to myself.
He's coming over for the memorial day weekend ;)

Thursday, April 16, 2009

They say love knows no color...

I say they are right.
But of course, we all have eyes, and well, ears to listen and heart to feel and by the time all the info is filtered through, we become selective... we "know" color.

Just my penny.

Wednesday, April 8, 2009

Pissing me off.

So, i dont know if i mentioned this but am part of an organization at my school. I get paid for it, but its more of a volunteer role as the pay is extremely small. Regardless, I was looking forward to March's payment because I seriously need to get the sticker on my licence plate renewed.I've already gotten a ticket for this so,...yes, I need to get it done.

Mind you, this organization has been sinking for a while now. People arent as motivated, i guess but you know...there is OBVIOUSLY more to this story. Okay, so it wasnt obvious...but there is, anyway.
So, we were to have a meeting (this organization) yesterday and out of the 8 of the members, myself and two others were present. With three of eight, we COULD not have an official meeting.
What annoyed me the most was that only one person said that they were not going to be able tomake it.

So, here I am, furious as a George is curious, pissed as urine is yellow and about to blow yet another fuse on this whole issue.
So, I got myself on facebook and sent a message to my beloved org. members.

It reads:


Sent By: ThisBlackGirl
April 7 at 9:06pm
Hi all



I havent received my payment for the month of March. I left a message for THEPRESIDENT and I along with V.PRESIDENT, had checked in the office for it but we could not find it. Not sure if Laura got my messages that I left her to inquire about that. When should I be expecting it?

About the UPCOMING conference, I I'm hoping to attend but I think THE PRESIDENT's help is needed in getting the details done. How can we get through this?
Lastly, no one but VP of CULTURAL AFFAIRS, VP of PUBLIC RELATIONS and I seemed to show up for the meeting today. In my opinion, its fine. But I would have preferred if I was advised of this in advance, just so I would not be there waiting and wondering. I'm sure all out times are precious especially now that exams are coming up. It'd just be more respectful that way.

I understand that it is the end of the year so people are busy. Please delegate or at the very least, inform your team members so we're aware if there is something that you will not be able to do.

With this said, I will not be at our next meeting on Tuesday the 14th. I'll be preparing for an exam that I have on the 15th. If I am absolutely needed, I will come. Please dont hesitate to let me know.
Thanks guys.


sincerely,

THISBLACKGIRL
555- 2345

THEPRESIDENT
Today at 2:14am

your hon. was written march 31st,
i thought V.PRESIDENT gave it to you last week.

you will be able to get it from her (ok V.PRESIDENT?!)


THISBLACKGIRL
Today at 2:18am
No,
we checked in your office, found the stubs (receipts for the actual cheque) but not the cheque.
So, i hear that it was written, because I saw the stub. But we couldnt find the cheque.

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I have just about had it with these folks.
I'll give details as to why, later.